Disappointment.
That is the overwhelming feeling in my heart. I have received email after email, and message after message stating that I have encouraged other people to make goals and get off their dead asses and start doing what is right by their body.
I’ve had to make a really tough decision that really makes me feel horrible, but there is just no way around it.
I will not be racing in the Independence Day 10k on July 4th.
Yea, I feel like a big hypocrite, because I’ve pumped this up, and had this amazing training plan, and was working with Tom (from www.runnerslounge.com) on my training, and posting running check ins and I just feel like total crap.
I grossly underestimated how difficult it would be to cram a whole summer semester of grad school into 3.5 weeks before embarking on an international trip, and while completing an internship. I had know idea that I would be working from 4-9 or 10 every night after work. I had know idea that I would get sick from either fatigue, stress, or both, but I have. I’m glad I got antibiotics when I did, because I’m finally starting to feel better.
I love running, and am so happy that I started this process, but the timing of this race is, and always was piss poor. It was stupid timing and stupid planning on my part.
I feel like I’m letting everyone down.
I know I could go, and run part-maybe even most of it- but that isn’t what I set out to do. I know that it isn’t how it should be, and I know that I will likely push to hard and injure myself because I haven’t been able to get the long runs in that I needed to.
I feel if I write too much more, it will just sound like excuses. So, I think I’m going to just leave it at that. I’ll be running a 10k in the coming months, but right now, my body is begging me to rest and relax, recover and prepare for the upcoming trip.
So that is the deal. I’m not running it. I won’t be surprised if you’re as disappointed as I am, but I hope you will support my decision and will root for me when I run 6.2 after my trip.
Good Night.
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It’s okay to realize when you’ve bitten off more than you can chew! We all do it – just be glad you have the maturity to recognize it and say, “hey, it’s not worth making myself miserable over.” Find another race to aim for, when your schedule isn’t so crazy, and give it the time and energy it deserves. Right now, you are working on school and work and so forth – and that’s okay. Running will always be there for you – it’s not going to go away.
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Sounds like the best decision for you right now.
You have to be realistic and set healthy goals.
You will run that 10k, just not in July. Best of luck!
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I agree with the previous commentators – sounds like right now just isn’t the best time for you! I wish you luck in the future and you didn’t let me down. It takes a stronger person to admit they aren’t prepared than someone who just goes ahead and runs the race risking injury.
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Don’t sweat it, chica! Life gets in the way of training sometimes, & you have to reprioritize accordingly. You’ll get your running in when you can.
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Don’t worry about it. You have to do what’s best for YOU! I just made the same decision about a 10K on July 4th, and I’ve actually felt relieved since I decided not to run it. Hang in there!!
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I can’t believe you gave up a race for GRAD SCHOOL! The horror.
You should be so proud of yourself and everything you’ve accomplished. You can run a 10K when you don’t have a million things going on – and then you’ll feel good about it and we’ll be cheering you on. Hey, you inspired me to get off my fat ass and run, so you get some points for that.
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Go back and read what you just wrote, specifically:
” I have encouraged other people to make goals and get off their dead asses and start doing what is right by their body.
I had know idea that I would get sick from either fatigue, stress, or both, but I have. I’m glad I got antibiotics when I did, because I’m finally starting to feel better.
I know that I will likely push to hard and injure myself because I haven’t been able to get the long runs in that I needed to.”
Deciding not to run that particular race right now is most definitely doing what is right by your body. You have to take care of it, you certainly don’t want to be further sidelined by an injury because you did too much. Be gentle with yourself. You’re human! And anyone who would hold you to a perfect standard is 1) a hypocrite, because last time I checked, no one is perfect and 2) sucks and their opinion shouldn’t matter anyway!
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Lady! No worries!!! You know what is best for your life at this time, and you’re doing it, so no more disappointment in your awesome self and certainly don’t apologize to anyone for backing out! You can only do what you can do and grad school is definitely more important at this time. There will be other races to participate in and you’re certainly not giving up on running, so there! I won’t hear another word of it!
BTW, I miss you and now this blog is all I have of you. Just know that I am thinking about you daily and I support you and I love you very much.
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Oh hun. Life happens. Don’t be too hard on yourself!
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I don’t think you should have to worry about disappointing anyone. This is your life and you know what is best for you. You are an inspiration.
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Don’t beat yourself up too badly. It’s better that you know what your are capable of and make the wise decision to not race that try to race and hurt yourself. I stupidly tried a 10k when I wasn’t ready and had a horrible time. There are plenty of other races out there. Good luck with your running.
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Sounds awesome!
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