Sometimes…I just don’t wanna talk to you.

It’s embarrassing to say:

I’ve worked out 6 times in 2 months.

I’ve gained several pounds.

My muscles are soggy.

My arms are wiggling.

I don’t have the stamina to run for an hour.

I ate LOTS of cheese this week. (seriously, a lot)

I don’t want more vegetables.

I’m not on a wagon.

I’m not an inspiration.

I know that there isn’t a person on the face of the planet that is more critical of me, than me. I am my own worst critic, I know… but that being said, I’m still frustrated. I might sit with livewriter open for an hour, and just never find the right words. I want to tell you that…

I’m PROUD for going to Yoga every week, for strength and meditation since January first.

I’m practicing moderation, and eating better.

I’ve lost a couple pounds back, and never actually HIT the “never-again-unhealthy-for-me-150” (It was close though… within 1 pound from that milestone)

I’ve been on the treadmill (3 times) and done the 30 Day Shred (once, but it was epic).

I’m giving myself time to reclaim the fitness that I let slip from my fingers since October.

I’m balancing an incredibly difficult job with all of the other things that I love.

I really, really like sharing my experiences with you, because you share your experiences with me…

But telling you the second list, requires your knowledge of the first.

So, know that the first list is true.

But so is the second.

And I want to be more willing to share the DOWNS of being healthy, not just the UPS. Cause the downs are when we cling to each other, and gather love and support from those around us… those who read us… those who pay attention to our journey.

Cause I want to WANT to talk to you. Because you’ve never done anything but encourage, and encouragement is exactly what I need right now, as I continue to improve myself, (showing kindness to myself) one day at a time.